learning

you guys, i suck.

i really wish blogging was on the top of my priority list, or for that matter, even on one of my lists.

i love writing, and i do feel like i have a voice, but shit! balancing life + work is hard! --by balance, i mean, coming home from work and managing to get 4 day old laundry folded--blogging falls to the wayside. then i see women with three kids under the age of 4 managing to write five days/week. oh, and did i mention? they are amazing posts! so, then i think, "girl, you have a dog. get over yourself." 

i used to hate when women complained about their 20's. i've been in the midst of them for 4 years, from what i saw, i had no complaints...until now.  20-23 is not your 20's. you're still in college, you just legally entered the drinking land, you are making your own money (or you should be! i'm looking at you, over privileged white people), the world is your oyster. 

...and then you hit 24. hangovers arent fun anymore, more than one of your friends are pregnant, married, home owners, making more money than you, or in a long term relationship. if i go a week without some type of meltdown, i'm content. 

i guess i should be thankful for my mid-twenties. i'm learning what i will and will not settle for, i'm learning that a dusty house is not a happy house; i'm learning that it is worth it to hang out with my dad once a week. i'm learning that in order to be the woman i want to be, i really will have to find time to go to the gym. i'm learning that the world is not ending, i do not need that final bite of chick fil a. 

most importantly, im learning that everything does not have to be exactly as it should; no phase of life lasts forever. there will come a time when i end a month with more than $5 in my bank account (but for now, at least its in the positive, mom!!) . there will be a time where i learn (and appreciate) the importance of cooking, gardening, and how to fold a fitted sheet. 

bottom line, im learning. im okay with not having my shit totally together. 

heres to trying..

this has no relevance, but it made me happy :)